heyyoo,
First of all I want to tell you that I didn't expect to love this TV show that much and this show really made big impact to my life.
This show completely addictive to watch and heart breaking for sure.
From the 1st episode everything seems to be perfect and normal,17 years old girl moved into small country and fell in love with basketball athlete (Justin) and I'm just amazed to Hanna how she could attract Justin with her tricks and making friends so fast with everyone (because I know sometimes its so hard for people to make some friends) but then the fact that she killed herself is just shock everybody. I really felt bad to Hanna, such a beautiful young lady who killed herself and that make me confused why would a beautiful and happy girl, with a nice personality could make a decision to take her own life?
then 2nd until 10 episode I mostly was so upset to Hanna an a lil bit blaming her about everything that happen to her life. I'm sorry if that sound so rude. I mean like, I know all her "friends" did something terrible to her, besides we all going trough that when we in High school right? (not all but mostly)
some of them don't deserve on her tape tho. uhm on Alex and Zach tape, I don't think they both did something horrible to her. in Alex case,
all he did is just write about her good ass, take the positive side if I'm became Hanna I'm gonna take that as compliment, lol.
and Zach? all he did was just trying to be friends with her and she push him away plus she yelled at him,all he did was TRYING TO BE NICE girl!!
oh and Justin? that cute guy ugh I know he's such a dick, he could be such a cute couple with Hanna if he didn't share that photo.I think Justin just want to protect Jessica but he did in the wrong way. I'm pretty sad about him. all he need was somebody to love. because his mom didn't care about him at all. that's sad:(
Oh! and I'm mad when Hanna lost the deposit money that her parent gave her. oh fuck Hanna, how could you forget the money??!! if I was her I would enter to the car first then before I go, I checked my phone.her parent was mad but that's her fault, why would Hanna think that she just make trouble to them. she already got so many problems and this shit happen to her. I was mad and pity her at the same time.
and I think Hanna cared so much about what people think about her. oh girl... I wish I was your friend so I would told you, "Oh fuck them, you don't need to care about what they gonna say about you, this is you so just be who you are, if that's just rumor ignore that" :(
what I really annoyed is why Hanna always push everyone away when they really being nice to her? that's why she didn't have many friends (yea beside she always be friends with the wrong person.) like Courtney maybe. ugh hate her so much! she's so fake.
and even her friends so cruel to her doesn't mean she have the right to make tapes and haunted them with her voice and blame them for her death. that's just....not right. the guilty feeling is last forever you know? even they didn't do something horrible but deep down in their heart, they knew they are the reasons Hanna's dead and it felt so bad until they maybe could kill themselves like Hanna did. that's just so wrong.
then there is Clay,the handsome smart quite guy who actually had crush on Hanna. ugh I was so pissed to him because he was so coward and being pussy(lol I'm sorry can't help it). but I love every moment Clay and Hanna had. it always so close to be romantic but clay always ruined it by talking or hugging Hanna as like she's just a friend. why Clay why?! you two likes each other T.T
but then in 11 until last episode, I finally understand. I understand why Hanna chose to take her own life. When she got raped by Bryce......(really Bryce? why you always need to put your di*k to every girl dude?!) I was so shock.... her problem was overwhelming and she got raped now?! no wonder if she said she died inside.(but what she did still wrong)
and when Clay listen to his tape and he blame himself for what happened to Hanna, I cried. that's just so heartbreaking. he was so coward to admitted that he loves her.
but before she made that dicision, she already asked for help but no one cared. no one cared enough. even the counselor, Mr Potter knew what happened to her but he didn't cared enough, and that't it. and
the climax was when her parent found her bleed to death. I cried again. real hard. I imagine how hurt her parent was to know her daughter bleed to death. HEARTBREAKING
what I regret so much was "why the hell Hanna became such a quite person? isn't she an outgoing person who likes to talk? why don't she try to communicate better so they don't have any miscommunication like Hanna had to clay, and she could said stop if she don't like it, so why?"
I'm asking myself, when did exactly everything start to feel so wrong?! the "what if" is always painful and full of regret.... it hurt me. This show just open your eyes on how life could be 100% defferent when nobody support you or love you.
plus I demand this tv show to have season 2. because the ending was not clear. did her parent win the case? and where did Justin go?did Jesicca tell her dad? what the hell tyler gonna do with his guns? did Bryce get caught? and HOW THE HELL ALEX SHOOT HIS OWN HEAD?! oh and idc for courney she's so fake I can't stand her.
This.need.a.season.two.
but this show made me understand that every little thing we do or say has impact to everyone.
with all what Hanna had been trough each of these is a little bit more added to the weight that is crushing down on someone.
It changed the way I look at others, and it makes me think twice before I say anything. because every words I say I never know how this gonna impact to their life.
just like this show said :
“When you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re messing with their entire life. Everything. . . affects everything.”
